Where Bambi goes, nothing grows! / Ray (Dad)Read >>
Where Bambi goes, nothing grows! / Ray (Dad)
Hi my best buddy,
Went out Saturday afternoon with Beau, Mike & Dustin Lawrence to Cedarvale. Mike farms over there, so we had a good place to set up for the deer, and the place was lousy with them. We were the only ones in there. I set up in the old abandoned farm house so I could watch them come in to feed. Three hours in and I spotted a big buck working his way across, but he was acting spooky so I grunted him and got his attention but he just wouldnt come over, then I saw why. Two does were coming in from the east and one kept turning around and looking behind her, so I decided to wait cause I suspected a buck was behind them. Sure enough, a nice 8 pointer was coming in so I waited till he was in range and dropped him, I jacked another round in and dropped the big doe, all within a 5 second span. I decided not to take your 25-06, just stuck with my Weatherby .270. Beau must be waiting on the "big one", I just wanted the meat, besides I already have a buck on the wall, the one you were always asking, "where's the rest of him", lol. Beau's using my 30-30 again this year. He used it last year and got that huge 12 pointer with it, he just forgot to return it after the season ended, lol. Sure wished that you were with us again, just isnt much fun without you being there, cracking everyone up with your silliness. We all love and miss you and Ang so much. I better get to work, I love you son.
Dear Father who art in Heaven... Please join our family on this Thanksgiving Day and bless each one as we sit down to pray as we remember those who have joined you above so dearly missed and deeply loved.
Please provide us strength on this Thanksgiving Day Bless us with memories of those faraway... Please grant patience to family and friends as we grieve and help us reach out to others who are bereaved.
We give thanks to you on this Thanksgiving Day.... For Your presence in our lives each and everyday. For Your comfort, guidance, and never ending love... And for taking care of our loved ones...in Heaven above.
As we light this candle on this Thanksgiving Day... And it glows in memory of those in Heaven today.... May their lights always shine down on us and give us light... And may we feel their presence along with yours tonight.
May the peace and tranquility of this Thanksgiving Day Be an everlasting light within each of us along the way... Lets bow our heads and give our Thanks to God above. For our blessings, whether on earth or in Heaven above... Amen
I had a dream about you last night. It was an odd dream. Your dad and i were at some car show or something, and all of a sudden you walked up. But your dad didnt think anything of it, like you have been alive all along. But for some reason i thought you had been gone. I liked the dream because it felt so real, but i hated waking up because you arent here.... i wish you were here to help me get through some things, but i also with you were here to fill the empty whole in your dads heart. He misses you terribly just like everyone else. Beau and Brittney's wedding was beautiful. I bawled like a little baby, lol. I know you were there standing up there with beau. Thats where you would have been.... Please watch over all the ones you love. I love you nick, and i wont ever forget about you. You will always be in my heart even when i get so old that i cant remember much, lol. I love you and miss you. Jeana
ITS ME AGAIN! YOUR SISTER! / Lynsey Collar (long lost "Sister" )
nickly, my angel you have finally saved me i believe that in my heart you was always watching over me but you had enough of the "abuse" as well. THank you. I loveyou so very much, i know i haven't been the greatest sister to you or pappy or any of the family, but i have kind of been in seclusion. i think about you all the time almost everyday but i carry you and our memories everywhere i go. you were such a major and very important part of my life that in one instant you were taking away, somedays i still don't understand why it had to be you and not sure i ever will, but i try and live with it and understand god's reasonings, though i know in my heart that you being here wiht all of us is SO MUCH BETTER AND EASIER. nickly, tell all my "friends" when they pray to you to get ahold of me ok, I'M SAFE ALIVE AND WELL. i'm living with my poppey now, WHERE I WILL STAY. there is so much i need to talk to you about and have you listen and let me just CRY AND CRY to you like i use to. but anyways. i love you brother, my friend, my guardian angel. i hope that you are doing ok up in the forever land. I MISSYOU LIKE CRAZY AND PAPPY SO MUCH. pappy, ifyou read this email me ok you know my email it hasn't changed. i would really loved to talk to you if you still want to talk to me, i want to be apart of the family again before i was so taken out of this "real world". i love you guys so much and think of you all.
GOOD GRIEF / VERONICA ANGEL MOM TO ZACHARY VANWINKLE Read >>
GOOD GRIEF / VERONICA ANGEL MOM TO ZACHARY VANWINKLE
Good Grief By Joseph R. Veneroso
Between wordless sobs the soul cries out, Grant them eternal rest, O Lord. And prays despites a haunting doubt, Let perpetual light shine on them.
Yet for us, the living, who remain to mourn the loss, To feel the pain, to bear the shock, to question why in God’s great plan they had to die, there is no peace, No rest , no light nothing but an endless night.
When we, defeated by the truth, surrender to death’s Other face, robbed of innocence and youth, No power on earth can e’er replace, Only in this, our darkest hour, can we truly hope to find Among our tears God’s healing power, among our fears True peace of mind, the simple faith to save our soul, That perfect love to make us whole.
Against the sadness and the sorrow with every ounce of faith Confessing hope for a better life tomorrow in our mourning We find blessing.
Tomorrow morning, your brother Beau and I are going to Grenola to check out some land that I have permission to hunt again this year. I went last year, but my heart wasnt in it since you werent with us as in past years. Beau got a big 12 pointer, so it kinda salvaged the season in one respect. 2004, the last time you were with us at Bryans mom's farm, and you got 2 bucks, Beau got one and I got one. Last year I found myself looking around for you automatically without realizing that you werent there. Two days of that and I hung it up, just couldnt get into it. This year I'm going to be hunting for you, using your 25-06 and leaving my .270 home. Beau and I both had a hard time going without you. I think its every fathers dream to be able to do things like hunting, fishing, golfing, working on cars and trucks together with his son. You never disappointed me when it came our time to do things as father and son. I couldnt have had a better choice for a son than you. I miss you so much it hurts, everyday it hurts. Time will never heal the pain of losing you and Angie. I look forward with great anticipation to the day we will all be reunited again.
UNCLE GREG / DAD
HEY BUDDY, GOT BACK FROM INDIANAPOLIS LATE LAST NIGHT, A TEN HOUR DRIVE, THANK GOD WE HAD TANNER WITH US TO KEEP US ENTERTAINED. WE WERE TOLD LAST THURSDAY TO HURRY UP THERE IF WE WANTED TO SEE HIM ONE MORE TIME BEFORE HE DIED. SO JEN, TANNER AND I HURRIED UP THERE AFTER WORK THURSDAY EVENING ARRIVING AROUND 3:30 A.M. FRIDAY MORNING. HE WASNT VERY RESPONSIVE BUT AT LEAST WE WERE GOING TO GET TO SPEND SOME TIME WITH HIM. BY SATURDAY MORNING HE HAD IMPROVED SIGNIFICANTLY, SITTING UP TALKING, LAUGHING, SO SUNDAY MORNING WE CHECKED OUT OF THE MOTEL AND WENT OVER TO HIS HOUSE, SEE WHAT THE HOSPICE NURSE HAD TO SAY, AND AGAIN HE WAS IN GOOD SPIRITS, VITAL SIGNS WERE GOOD SO WE SAID OUR GOODBYES AND CAME BACK HOME. WE KNOW ITS JUST A MATTER OF TIME NOW, BUT AT LEAST WE WERE ABLE TO SEE HIM AND VISIT FOR A FEW DAYS. GREG IS MY X BROTHER-IN-LAW AS YOU WELL KNOW, BUT WE WERE MORE LIKE BROTHERS AND EVEN THOUGH YOUR MOM AND I DIVORCED, NOT ONLY GREG BUT ALL YOUR MOM'S FAMILY AND I REMAINED VERY CLOSE. THEY WERE ALL HERE FOR YOU AND ANGIE AND I'LL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR ANY OF THEM. LIKE I SAID EARLIER, TAKING TANNER WITH US TURNED OUT TO BE A STROKE OF GENIUS. THAT KID HAS EMULATED YOU SO MUCH IN EVERY ASPECT, HUMOR, WIT, LOVING AND JUST A JOY TO BE AROUND. HE'S SO MUCH LIKE YOU THAT IF I WERE TO CLOSE MY EYES, I WOULD THINK YOU WERE STILL HERE. NICK, THAT LITTLE GUY WAS SO HURT WHEN YOU LEFT US, AS WE ALL WERE, BUT YOU WERE THE ONLY ONE OF ALL THE KIDS WHO TOOK HIM PLACES, SPEND THE NIGHT AT HIS HOUSE TO PLAY GAMES WITH HIM, WENT TO CHURCH WITH HIM, HAD ME GO GET HIM IN THE RAIN AND SNOW TO TAKE 4 WHEELING WITH US. HE LOVES AND MISSES YOU SO MUCH, YOU REALLY WERE HIS BEST FRIEND AND HERO. HE WOULD CHEER FOR YOU AT THE FOOTBALL GAMES, HE WAS SO PROUD OF HIS UNCLE "PICKUS" AS HE ALWAYS CALLED YOU. NEEDLESS TO SAY, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU AS WELL, ALWAYS WILL. YOU AND ANGIE WERE MY TWO YOUNGEST, I MISS YOU KIDS SO MUCH, WE ALL DO.
Ray, The Angel gathering was truly a rewarding time for all of us Moms, Dads n siblings. Everyone walks in the same painful footsteps eachday . Understanding this pain n sorrow in r hearts. We laughed, cried hugged told story after story of their short lived young lives. We walked to the beach n wrote their names in the sand watching the waves make them disappear. Looking out in tho the ocean at the calm peaceful serenity n surroundings I could not wait for the angels to bring me home to Eric a much better place to be. No hurt pain suffering anger dishonesty or lies. That this world is filled with.
October 26th is Erics 3rd aniiversary of that horrible day that changed my life forever. I am leaving for 3weeks as of the 14th I am going to my sisters and stay with my twin nephews 12 year old boys whom I adore n 16year old Cameron while they going on vacation for 12 days. Then I am leaving on the 26th to Nyc to be with Ryan my only other child to celebrate Erics fond memories. Thank God for my Ryan he is my rock strength n reason for living eachday. I am proud of his accompolishments drive n determination to work hard stand on his own being a young professional in Nyc.
This month brings much saddness to my life. I still cant believe Eric is gone but know Ray I am truly thankful when I come to Erics site feeling so down n there before me are your kind caring loving words bringing a "Ray of Hope" to my life that very moment. Angel Blessings Thankyou from my heart.
The last words spoken between my son and I were, "I love you" and "I love you too Mom". That was the last time I saw or spoke with my boy. I'm sure you realize this was a gift from God. He lent us our children, then took them home when their jobs were done.. There was no way for us to know our children were going to leave us so soon.. And God wanted us to know that He was happy about the job we did raising our boys. We loved them with all of our hearts..
God bless you.. And thank you... Call on me anytime. I've left my email address for you..
I am so sorry for your loss.. / Brian Joseph Rock's Mom Read >>
I am so sorry for your loss.. / Brian Joseph Rock's Mom
It seems our children have the same "gone to Heaven" date. And both automobile accidents. I lost my precious son - my best friend, in 2002. Not a day goes by that I don't cry. Not a minute passes that doesn't hold a thought of him. You sound like very strong people. My thoughts and prayers go out to your family... God bless you all...
Thanks/ Marlene Bohn (Angel Mother to Eric )Read >>
Thanks/ Marlene Bohn (Angel Mother to Eric )
Ray,
Thanks for all your loving, caring, kind words. Sorry ur unable to come to the angel gathering was hoping to meet you n give u bunches of Hugs For we both understand this pain n sorrow in our hearts n soul forever never to mend. How much fun we would have had sharing all the memories of Erics, Angies n Nicks young short lives. I too have met many Mother Fathers n Familes of lost loved ones from liting candles n visiting their memory site. Gods Blessings we have each other to walk this journey together. Hopefully next year you will make it. I know in my heart this angel gathering will become an annual event keeping the fond memories always of our loved ones.
My prayers n thoughts for your brother-in-law. How special to have a friendship with him sharing a bond like brothers. My xhusband n myseld are great friends. Some marriages are not meant to be that does not mean you cannot be friends. This world would be a better place if more people were like us reaching out touching lives n moving on. Life is too short as we both know live for today for tomorrow may never come.
Lots of Love n Hugs Ray Fondly Marlene Erics Mom ^i^ Close
yet another day / Stephanie Dunbar
Nick I think I owe you everything. I read what people right on here and it's crazy how much one person can impact so many people. I thought about you a lot today. I dont think there was any reason in particular reason, I dont think. Nick, I wish you were here! ...and understood how great things are going for me right now. Theresa and Kerk were givin Colziah crap the other day about the CJ. He told them it was you! haha He wasn't going to but they got it out of him! I can't believe Shalise took the blame for it! I definitely would have told them it was you! haha I'm getting a car! It's a cougar, white. It used to be Kari's. I can't wait, it will be better than the old junker I'm drivin now! Well this is my senior year! Can you believe it?! ...3 years ago! golly! I can't believe how much time has passed. I'm working at Sonic now. I dont think I'm going to stay there long. He cut my hours hugely! So I guess I have my eye out for a new one. Biederman's just wasnt workin for me. I was tired of puttin up with my boss. Well Nick, I will try to write more often. Even if I don't you know I love you and miss you SO much! Close
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